The God Awful Truth

Sometimes I'm just tired. We don't get snow days here, we don't get it's too hot to exist days, we don't get any sort of understanding for the weather, the weight of the world, or the cracks in the sidewalks. Most of us didn't even choose to live here. So if you're wondering what's wrong - really and truly, I'm just so tired. 

I hope you're sleeping better where you are. 

-Sincerely,

BlueJay

The Wolves Run Right To the Weeping Horizon

It's possible I was one of the first people to wish you "happy birthday" this year, just as it's entirely possible I'll be the last. I don't know what you got up to, but I know we're watching the same sky change from blue to pink to purple - just like we did last year. Maybe instead of taking you out for coffee we should go for cotton candy and pop rocks. It's okay if you don't understand why. 

Happy Birthday, Friend. 

I can't wait to see you again. 

-Sincerely,

BlueJay

The Tiles Know the Truth Too

Today someone gave me a handmade gift - perfect for me. It's clear they know me well and sometimes I wonder how well I really know them in turn. Anyway, I took that gift on an adventure and wondered about you the whole time. Maybe we all need to shake out our blankets and begin again.

-Sincerely,

BlueJay

The Resolutions Stick This Time

If only you could understand how vital it is for me to stop apologizing for breathing - maybe then we could be friends again. 

-Sincerely,

Bluejay

The Way Time Twists and Turns

Today the ghost on my wrist got a taste of what it's like to have a friend on my shoulder. Yesterday the ghost I pretended to be asked me what haunting is supposed to be like. And I'm sure tomorrow I'll finally have the strength to find out where the phantoms have been hiding all this time. 

-Sincerely,

BlueJay

The Reflections on Improbable Surfaces

I felt popular for the first time in a long time today. You'd have been proud. Maybe you have been all this time. I don't really know anymore. But I've done enough peopling, facing forward, and pretending now I'm going to hide under the covers until the sun is warm enough to melt this ice on my windowsill.

-Sincerely,

BlueJay

The Lies we Tell Ourselves

We all have to pretend we're something we're not from time to time. Today I think I'll be a pirate. Go sailing, imagine what it's like to hold a handful of gems out into the sun, and scream profanities into a sky that changes even more often than my mood. 

-Sincerely,

BlueJay